My local counselling service wouldn't accept me as I self harmed

I had been self harming for a while before I found Battle-scars nearly a year ago. I had been at one of my lowest points and was desperate for help. My local counselling service wouldn't accept me as I self harmed. Although my doctor was supportive I needed more support and I didn't know who to turn to. I didn't have anyone else to talk to and I was really struggling. That's when I started searching the internet for self harm support groups. I was so relieved when I found battle-scars. They had a lot of information online that I looked at before joining the online groups.

I needed more support and I didn't know who to turn to

At first I was so anxious I attended with my camera off and used the chat function to participate. Gradually I started talking but it still took 6 months before I put my camera on. I still sometimes keep my camera off if I am struggling. There was never any pressure to turn it on or talk.

Battle Scars has been a lifesaver for me. I have found it to be a safe space with supportive people who are non judgemental. Being part of the group, the topics and discussions and supporting others too.  Knowing I am with people who understand and just being with supportive people for an hour during group helps, even if I don't feel I can participate much sometimes. ​

Just being with supportive people for an hour during group helps

Despite being anxious I started facilitating several months ago and the support I have had has given me confidence. Although I know I have a long way to go, it's progress not perfection I am going for, so I will just keep trying my best and I know I have support if I need it. ​